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Sunday, August 20, 2006
2:38 PM

I'm now at my mumy's place.Didnt want to come in the first place because i merajok.but i got project work due in the coming friday ...Haiz ... tak paham aku ... perangai2 manusia.So now i've learnt my lesson.Never borrow their car anymore or sit in their caR.Sendiri pergi and balik kerja,sendiri pergi sekolah and balik sekolah malam.Im getting very2 very tired every single day with my growing tummy and it doesnt help that im still having my night classes.Bukan aku pinjam kereta buat joli2 or huray huray ... Pinjam untuk amik balik kelas malam.If i were to take mrt by myself i would reach home only around 10.45.Why dont people understand?If i werent pregnant I wouldnt ask for their help.I would go home by myself or even ride on the bike.But they prohibit me from riding the bike because of the incident dat time ... Plus I have to cook for hubby every morning.So i need to prepare the ingredients before hand...This week was very emotional for me for the many parties that hurt me ...
So today, i went pasar Boon lay hubby send me but had to go to work so i go home myself.I bought 1 weeks of stocks to cook for a week.Imagine a pregnant woman carrying so many things.Some uncles offered to help but i refused.For me if my own family members do not care about my pregnancy and me having a hard time carrying all these groceries ....and how i am feeling right now,why should outsiders care an give a damn.I just carried everything almost 4 kg of chicken and meat...and other food items... just to standby at home ... Since im working i have to stock up for at least a weeks supply..as i am unable to go market to buy any food item on weekdays.. I tell you my mind was asking me to give up and take a cab home but i do not want to waste money ... As there is still more things to buy for the house as well as money to save for baby.I took 99 and then took 199 and stop infront of Jln bahar and walk in to my place.Slowly ... i walked and reached home.I am very proud of myself for doing all this independently.Even if i bleed after this,or my tempat beranak goes lower because of the heavy load.I have to accept and endure the pain.Because there is no one that i can depend on or ask for help or rely on.I just have to be independent and learn it the way that people want me to learn.

On a brighter note,baby started kicking on friday during class presentation and i keep giggling non-stop.It was a funny feeling.Its very abrupt too.And now baby is kicking me again ...Baby loves the right side of my tummy to kick.Tommorrow im going for NUH appointment for the scanning.Excited to know my baby's gender.MAy baby be healthy inside me ....

Life is bliss with you in my arms,
every single day.